Finally.

Hello. So I just finished watching Fergie on Tyrashow at Youtube. And I fell in love with her song, Finally. That's why I've put it up here at CBBC. Just listen to it. It relates Fergie's life story. She went through alot as she grew up. She had an addiction to Meth, some kind of drug. And she slowly recovered. The song is like telling everybody HOW she recovered. Here are the lyrics.

MMMMMMMMMM

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

MMMMMMMM

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally

MMMMMMMM

Finally, Finally

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

Ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, finally

Its a beautiful song. Just listen to it and read the lyrics. It is so touching. I can actually relate to the song. Except that everytime the 'finally'comes in, I'll just let it pass. Sighs.

Aaahhh.

Dirty Dancing Havana Nights Diego Luna as Javier (Actor)

Hello people.

Argh I am in love.

I am in love with a movie.

A movie titled Dirty Dancing Havana Nights.

Its just so wonderful.

The dancing is hot.

The actor himself is fcuking hot.

I've watched it 5 times in 5 days.

And just now, I just bought the DVD with special features for $9.90.

And it was awesome watching it alone and giggling to myself everytime Diego Luna makes his appearence.

Aaaahhh.

I'm Head over heels with Dirty Dancing 2.

Watch it people.

Ahah.

Hello there. Nyahahahah. So this is an update for what I did just now. =)

I met Johanna, Izad, Mugilan, Jaafar at Somerset Skate Park just now at 10am. I was wearing a leopard print tank top and purple jeans. So when I reached all of them looked drunk. Hahah. Cause of the way they sit and all. Then while waiting for Ridwan to come, the three of them skate-d around. Izad kept falling and cause of the impact, he will go around bending down and saying, 'Ow. Ow. Ow.' He really looked like old man. Hahah. Anna tried skating too. She was so cute and funny. She actually fell when she slid off the slope when she was coming towards me after she stopped skating. She fell and hit her elbow and head. I thought she was gonna cry, I swear. So I stood up immediately and asked if she was ok. She was quiet for awhile, then she started laughing. -.-

She had this bruise on her elbow. Poor girl. So when Ridwan reached, we went to East Coast Park. It was a looooooong journey. Went to the skating thing there. It was sooo cool. There were more boys there with their skates and bicycles. I was so amazed they could do cool tricks.

Then we left because Anna was meeting up with Freddhie and Zuben and I was meeting Puma and Areena to watch Dear John. We ate at KFC Plaza Singapura while waiting. Then Freddhie and Zuben came. Hahah. Freddhie was so hilarious. I like his personality. He ain't shy and he's very socialable. He kept asking questions and cracking up jokes. Zuben was the 'cool' dude. Hahah.

After they ate, we went to their school, YMCA. Its a damn good school. I wanna go there one day. We went to 9th floor and sat at the tables there. Freddhie showed me his magic tricks. Sooo cool lah! I was like 'What? How did you do that?!' the whole time. Hahahah. Then Anna and Freddhie dared each other to go into the swimming pool. So Anna wore Zuben's extra t-shirt and got ready to go into the pool. Then before she knew it, Freddhie pushed her into the pool. But she was holding on to his t-shirt so he went in too. Hahahahah. It was a funny sight. Then they played in the water and kept trying to drown each other. Hahah. I love them both. Then they got out and we went to Level 3 carpark to erm. Then I had to leave cause Arina and Puma were waiting for me.

So I hugged Anna, who was very drenched. When I hugged Freddhie, he didn't wanna let go cause he wanted me to get all wet. I was like Okay I'm wet already!!! Hahahah. Then I hugged Zuben and he was like, Áww. Now I'M wet. Hahahah. Funny people.

So I watched Dear John. I was a very slow movie. I cried when Channing Tatum was like crying cause his dad in the movie was dying. So, yeah. The other parts were boring. Then I left and went home. So that's basically it. I'm done here. Toodles!

Bubbly is back.

Hello. I don't think I wanna be that saaaad miserable girl anymore. Its not fun and irritating when everybody asks u why? What's wrong? What's happening. So yeah. No more saaad girl.
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AZURA !
New and improved. Imma be happy always. Smiling like nothing's wrong. Cause if u mix personal with school, it gets messy. So hello everybody. Imma pretend nothing's going on okay? So that it is better for me and everyone else.

So currently, I'm trying to help some people with their problems. Do try and figure out who you are.
1. Girl - You're not guilty. Stop thinking you are. Just make it up to him now that the other one's away. Analyse your inner feelings too please. Cause right now you're so unsure of yourself. Don't be afraid to ask him out. Its better than he asking u out again and you fail to come right? So gather your guts and ask him out. It's nothing wrong. Stay strong. Fight for those feelings buried inside.

2. Girl - You also another one. It's not your fault larh dhey. They both liked you at the same time. It's A's fault. He just can't accept the fact that the other one likes you and you DO like him back. So don't keep blaming yourself. And stop being so paranoid when he does something to R. Let them settle it. The more you defend R, the more he'll hurt him. You have to trust me on this. You never know what he'll do if you say a word about him putting a finger on R. So chill. Try to ignore them aite? But you can always be the listening ear to R. That should be ok.

3. Girls - Argh. I don't know where to start. Like I said, talking among yourselves is the best solution. You can't possibly ignore the situation and start to not talk to each other in the future right? That's just not right? From the way I see it, you guys have alot to discuss about each other. It can be done. So stop being pessimistic about the outcomes. You have to speak up. And be patient, always. Patience is a virtue. Your friendship is something special. Whatever happened to (Read: Translate to malay) "Let the moon be the witness for our friendship." You guys related your friendship like that, so you have to UPHOLD it that way. Whatever it is, talk it out. Pour out your feelings. And always always always, compromise and cooperate. Honesty is the best policy my girls. Stay strong ohkay?

So that's it. That's just how I feel about the problems some of my friends are going through nowadays. So if you have any other comments, talk to ME in school or here at the Tagboard. Thank you very much. Have a good night.

No Idea

So I explained to Johanna about the dream. And she said that it has something to do with that particular person. I don't know Anna. I just don't know. My whole life's falling apart. I'm not an emotional person lah. I'm ALWAYS happy and smiling to everybody. I love laughing cause it makes me feel better. I am bubbly. I don't show my feelings. Its just in there. Buried under all the smiles and laughter. But I'm not acting 'happy'. At certain parts of my life I AM happy. Especially when I'm surrounded with people I love. You see. 4 things make up my life.

1. Family(Including pets)

2. Friends(FIVE ! and my other friends)

3. Feelings(Including happiness)

4. Beliefs

So, yeah. Argh I dunnoe why I'm so sentimental right now. I feel like I'm such a loser. Wake up Azura. It ain't gonna change. You'll just have to go on from where it started.

Dreams.

I dreamt I was standing in the middle of a field with nothing else around it. And then few seconds later, I felt a sudden sharp pain in my heart. Before I knew it, I was bleeding. I couldn't breathe properly. At that moment all I saw was the beautiful sky with white clouds floating above me. I asked to the silence around me, "Am I dead?" The answer came clear that I wasn't. Because few seconds later, a black figure loomed above me. I couldn't see clearly cause I was loosing too much blood and my vision was blurred. I was dying. And it turned out that someone had shot me straight through my heart. And I eventually died in that dream.

Please tell me that dreams aren't real. Cause that dream felt so real. When I woke up, felt that stab of pain at the spot where the bullet went through. Sighs.

Oh Gosh.

Hello there. This post is gonna be long. I don't know if you're interested to read. Cause if you aren't, its okay. You can just enjoy the songs here. But if you are, then be my guest to read until the end. It's just gonna be long and ininteresting. So until here, if you wanna go, thanks for dropping by. =)

I'm not sure where to start. There are a million of things I wanna let out and away from myself, but I can't and I don't know why. For the first problem, probably its because I don't want to and I'm just gonna let her be. And for the other problem, I can't let it out. It's very private. But yet again, I don't think I can hold it any longer because its getting heavier and heavier everyday. Like I mentioned earlier, I want to let it all out, but I just can't. Please don't ask why. There are tonnes of things that I'm keeping inside me. Those that are not so serious I tell the FIVE ! or Johanna. But other than that, those that are serious and personal, I just keep it to myself. Yes girls, there are more things that I don't tell you guys compared to those things that I let out. Cause, it concerns me, my happiness and my family. So I can't.

So here, I'm just gonna rant on how miserable I am at this stage. I mean, do all teens go through this type of puberty? One that hurts so bad you feel like shouting but everybody's around? It's like you're so secluded in your own tiny space cause you can't go out. Nobody out there understands you, so you're afraid they'll think you're so problematic and you need help. Gosh. How do I ever get out of this situation. Of course they'll say, okay, tell me, maybe I can help. But in the end they're just gonna look at you and say, 'Ohmygosh. I have nothing to say. Or relax. Or chill. Or just be patient. I'm tired of all these. I need serious help like somebody who completely understands my pain and can guide me through on how to heal that wound.

There are so many things going on in me, my life. Millions of things that I don't even understand how, or why its like that. Sometimes I'm not even sure what the problem is, and I try to find the reason behind it. Other times I just feel like crumpling away every problem I have and dumping it into Mr Dustbin. I'm so confused, so disturbed, so distracted and so miserable. Sighs.

1) When I got that news, I felt throwing myself in front of a speeding car when I'm crossing roads. My whole world just collapsed. I was like, what the hell? How on Earth did she get it? Is it like a form of punishment for me from my Gawd? Or did she do something in the past that made him angry so he wants to punish her? I don't know. I hope its none and I hope she's gonna be with me until forever. Cause I don't think I can live without her. I love her, I do, and I don't wanna wake in the morning and not feel her presence someday. I just don't. Every night I pray that the results are negative and that thing doesn't grow and will just go away. Cause if it does... Oh man. Suddenly my heart weighs heavier than ever.

2) When she left, I felt so helpless and stupid that I couldn't even stand up for her or talk some sense into her. I felt so dumb. In fact I felt that I was the dumbest s*s**r ever in this world. I didn't open my mouth to stop this nonsense. I just sat in my room hearing the quarrels they had about her. I just stood there blankly when they t**** her out. I don't even remember the last time I heard her voice. I badly want to visit her and just see her face and tell her how sorry I am for being such a douchebag and how badly I miss her. But then again, I don't have the guts to face her. Cause I'm sure once I see her face, tears are gonna start rolling. Just hearing the stories he tells me about her makes me tear up. It's like I want to, I do, but I'm such a coward that I can't. I feel like 10 people just poked a hole in my heart. Same spot, over and over again when I think about those days. And what's worst is that every day the hole gets bigger and bigger. She's just 4 bus stops away from me everyday and everytime I reach home, not accomplishing my own desires to see her, I feel like slapping myself so hard and shouting that I'm such a bad and cowardly s*s**r. I suck. I'm a bloody sucker.

So what now? What's the definition of my life? My happiness especially. If you can't tell me, then what do you expect me to tell myself. Just go on and be patient? Time will heal all wounds? Sighs. If time is taking so long, then why should I wait for it? What if that time is too late? I don't have 100 centuries to experience life. I don't even think I have a hundred years. So how long is this happy ending going to take to come to me? How long do I have to wait until the hole closes and never opens up ever again? When am I going to have that moment where everything is peaceful and remains that way until the clock stops ticking? I seriously don't know. I can't wait. At least I don't think I can hold onto that buoy any longer. It's either I drown, or I'll be saved by a lifeguard. Is that what I need? A life-guard? More like life-guider. If there's such a thing sold anywhere in the stores, I would even trade my life just to get it.

Sighs. I don't know why I am saying all this. I just miss my old life. The life where I thought everything was going to be okay, every single day. The life at which I opened my eyes and saw the world for the very, first, time.

Heheh.

Hello there dearest readers. So uhm. Where to start? I got no idea.

Owh! I met Royce today! Hahah. He's not bad. I love his smile. He has that very friendly atmosphere all over him. Hahah. Nice dude. We are so called Kindergarten pals in Phine''s dream. Hahah. Or mind. Or world. Aiyah up to her lahh. Hahah. So, yeah. He's a good guy. So is the other one. Sorry Phine. Both of them are good for you. It's just that he is more of THAT kinda guy that I have always wanted for you. But of course, it's supposed to be you who decides. So, take a pick! Pick the one that's you think is right for you. Alright? All the best. Hahah.

Other than that, I have nothing else to say. I just love CBBC's new look. Hahah. Ohkay whatever. Have a good night earthlings!

PS: Love is friendship. (Can anybody agree/disagree to this?)