Thrilled.

Ask me why I'm so happy.

Why I'm so happy?

You asking me why i'm so happy?

I'll tell you why.

I love reading. Books are like part of my life. It makes me who I am. I learn so much through reading. How to handle life, mostly. The type of books I read are mostly Romance Novels. My favourite writer would be Jennifer Crusie and Tara Janzen. So anyways, why I'm so happy? I emailed Tara Janzen a few days ago, through her website. This was what I said.

Me:

Hey!
My name is Azura and I am only 16 years old this May 18th. I'm from Singapore and I love reading your books! Right now I just finished reading Crazy Love and I gotta say, I love Skeeter's character. She's so cool and intriguing. So anyways, I just wanted to know, when did you start writing and how did you do it? I want to be a writer but I'm still exploring the whole thing and I need to improve on my Vocabulary as well as my sentence structures. But I love reading. And I tend to create little scenes in my mind whenever I finish reading a book or watching a movie. And as soon as I'm done, I'll take a pen and a little book and begin writing dialogues. I let my friends read my first Story and they liked it. So do you think I have what it takes to be a writer? I'd be so happy if you could respond to this message. Thank you so much for reading this, Tara! And all the best for your future books!

And guess what? She replied! I didn't think she would, but she did! I opened my email the next 2 days and saw an email from her. I went berserk and announced it on Twitter. I beamed from ear to ear, I felt extremely over the top. Hahahah. I was so happy my favourite writer responded to my email! Wanna know what she said? Here's what she said.

Tara's Reply:

Hi Azura -

It sure sounds like you've got all the basic instincts of a writer! I often jot down dialogue myself. I'm thrilled that you love Skeeter Bang - she's a character very dear to my heart. The most important thing you can do for your writing, is to keep writing. The more you actually write, the better you will get. Try tackling a whole story, even if it's a very short one, so you can see how the beginning, the middle, and the end all get put together. One word of advice that is very important: Write the kind of stories you love to read. I know that sounds simple, but sometimes people miss that point. They like to read romance novels, but think they should write like Hemingway. I am delighted that you have loved reading about the Steele Street crew!

Hugs, Tara

Like omg I'm speechless. And her words of encouragement is so... well... ENCOURAGING! This inspires me to continue writing. Hahah. I have like a few stories in my mind, and I've already produced 2, in small blue notebooks. Right now I'm working on my 3rd story but this time, using Wordpad. I need to make full use of the modern technology! OMG I'm just so happy right now. =)

PS: Sometimes in life, you gotta stop paying attention to the negative things and start embracing the positive ones. Only then you can truly find your inner peace and learn to love yourself even when everyone else gives up on you. Writing makes me feel like I have something to accomplish. Something of my own interest and hopes and dreams. Reach for your dreams. Don't hold back. Go the distance and strive to be the best. Good luck. =)

Let me list out the things I'm currently craving for and will always want. =)

1. That one perfect guy.

2. 14 points for L1R5 Olevels.

3. An iTouch from Apple.

4. A Cannon DSLR.

5. iPhone 4 with Twitter and Facebook.

6. Any phone with Twitter and Facebook.

7. A new laptop.

8. New clothes.

9. New heels.

10. A pair of Vans shoes.

11. To be taller.

12. To have my family back.

13. AhBoy back.

14. Food.

15. A life.

OMG.

Yeah. I get it. I know I know. My Blogger is DEAD. I can't help it people! I'm busy with school, and other things! I am so sorry. =(

Ohkayy. Nowadays I've been really addicted to reading people's Tumblrs. I think Tumblrs are extremely cool to the highest level of Maximum. Hahah. Whatever is on Tumblr is so fcuking true and entertaining. Especially the little GIFs. A.K.A little animations. I'm officially addicted to alot of people's tumblrs. But I could never have my own cause if I did, it'll be dead because everybody be posting the same thing and I'll have nothing to post. So imma just stick and stay true to Blogger. It stayed with me. I can't betray it. =)

Okayy. So anyways... What's going on with me? Sighs. I'm heartbroken currently. All these while I thought the rumours were true and he DOES like me he just doesn't wanna say it. Cause the things he do, the things he say, I feel like he's just shy to admit he likes me. So I let it be. But a few days ago I got my answer. He doesn't. He flat out straight doesn't like me like that. He doesn't have feelings for me like I have for him. I'm pathetic I know. What's more hurtful is that he likes someone else. And I know this girl. Hell, she's a freaking close friend. And he's been liking her since before. I thought that was okay because sooner or later he's gonna realise that she doesn't feel the same way towards him and he'll move on. But I was wrong. She does feel the same way towards him. She's just a very complicated person that cannot make up her mind and she's currently on my 'Die Bitch' List. Urgh. I'm pathetic. And heartbroken.

Whatever. I'm moving on. I try not to feel anything everytime he looks at me. I try not to get butterflies in my tummy when he's THAT close to me. I try not to blush when he stares. I try not flutter when he smiles. I try my best, to STOP liking him. I gotta move on. She's my friend. He's my friend. I don't wanna be a bitch. I mean I am already a bitch BUT I don't wanna be that kind of bitch. I'm a loser. -.-

Oh well. This has been private all these while and I've never told anyone except Puma. She's the closest friend I have at this point. And I'm thankful that I at least have her. I love Puma. Everyone else is asking who I like cause I RARELY like anyone. But I said I will never tell them cause it's something that can NEVER be told. Okay enough. Azura, you're blabbering.

I realise my blog isn't as lively as before. Where I give deep insights on something, my own opinions and views, and stuffs like that. I'm sorry Readers. I've changed. I lost that Blogger touch quite a while ago. I'm not sure where it went. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm quiet, I'm secretive, I'm boring, I'm always angry, I'm always crying over little things. I guess I have too many things bottled up inside that everytime something happens I burst. Argh. I'm pathetic. And I'm outta here.

PS: If you wanna catch up with me, follow me on Twitter. You have to follow me cause I'm private and my Tweets are protected. I'm more active there right now cause it's like a quick blog. Then you can also ask me questions on Formspring. Any questions I don't mind. And of course, Facebook. But don't worry I'll still continue blogging though. I don't wanna lose my readers. =)

Twitter : TotTotAzura

Facebook: facebook.com/zurashawty

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