Life before happy endings.

OMG. How many years have I not been posting? Ohkay don't answer that. =p
Here's an update.

Hmm, I stopped at Tuesday, so i'll continue from Wednesday onwards. =)

Err nothing much happened actually. Normal school stuff, then had assembly and all and then went home. Thursday, I think I had no dance? I don't remember. Friday, ohh well, ended school with reading, PFFT. KAVITHA's SHIT in school hall. Saturday, had warisan. I couldn't puase, cause of, 'girl reasons'. Then Sunday, went to Geylang.

Monday had dance. Tuesday, normal lessons. Then dance. Yesterday went home with Siti Farah and Johanna. Screamed at the top of our lungs at the swing in Bishan Park. Damn tiring luh sioool. Then today, ho well, had dance again. Miss Shining was in her good mood today. We were making so much noise and all she said was, "People you're getting too loud uhk." And she was even laughing when we made mistakes during our warm-up. I just love her man.
Ohkay so that was school. Now's the harder part.

Home. Well, some of you might now know this, but, I haven't been going home eversince the incident in the post before this one. I don't want to go home. Actually I tried at least staying for a few minutes when I dropped by yesterday to take my stuffs for dance today. But, nothing's changed. I reached home, to find her there. She stared at me like she didn't even know who I was. She doesn't even care whether I go home or not. My heart sinks deeper everytime I see absolutely nothing like love in her eyes. Infact, everytime I look at her, my heart breaks into a million tiny pieces. Sighs.

But, thankfully, I still have that understanding father of mine. I just love my old man. He respects my decision, whatever way it is. Helet me stay over, cause he knows that I need to cool down. But when he thinks the time is right, he'll call me and ask me to go home. So, good thing I have him.

Another person would be my brother. Eventhough he's still going through the few last weeks of his NS days and that I don't really see him around that much, I'm still glad that I have that chunk of muscles as my brother. He's always the one coaxing 'her' to change her attitudes towards me. Eventhough he knows it's an impossible thing, I appreciate his efforts to make me a better child. Abang Izwan is so supportive.

And so is my sister. She's always been there for me. Always around when I need her. I can always depend on her to make me feel better. Whenever I call, she always answer. Hearing her voice makes me so happy sometimes, because I know that if I can't count on anybody else, this person on the phone can, cause 1 thing, she answered the call, so she still thinks I'm important, another thing is because she bothered to talk to me. Just a simple hello, would make me feel so much better. And I'm so glad I have Kakak Azian. She's my pillar of strength. I'd never know what I'd do without her.

But hey. I guess I'm sorry to say this then. Ayah, Abang, Kakak, I've decided that I don't want to go home to that house anymore. I just feel that, too much things have been happening. And I'm not sure I'm patient enough to go through every bit of it. Eventhough other amazing and wonderful things have also happened, like laughing about jokes, playing games around and catching each other all the time, and also me finally being able to have cats as pets, but however nice it is, I don't think I can do it anymore.
But don't blame 'her' though. As ya'll know, I do love her. But I've lost hope in thinking that she'll change. So there it is, I'm leaving. But don't worry, I'll be staying over at grams place. And I'll be going home every everyday to get my stuffs and also for tuition purposes. Nonetheless, always remember that I love all of you very much.

But heyy, my decision's not final yet. It's just a suggestion. I could change my mind and start hoping all over again. So let's all pray that my patience be topped up, my strength be brought up, my hopes and dreams of a happy family, shoot way up. Amin.

I've had enough nonsense for one night.

So hello. Where should I begin? Hmmm... Ohkay got it.
Uhm before I start, I'm telling ya'll that this ain't no today-i-do-this-yesterday-i-do-that kind of post. So if not concerned, please leave. Thanks for dropping by, I'd say.

I'm not really sure if ya'll noticed that I haven't been in my best of moods lately but anyway, here's why. Well things have been going really bad, at home. Ohh wait, at the place that I'm currently residing in and where most of my clothes are. Basically, some of ya'll might have guessed, its because of that woman. Lets start with last week, shall we.

So like I told you, she was ohkay with me when I was still sick. And during that period of time, I got myself a new phone. But with regards to what's been happening in school, I don't dare bring that phone to school, so I used my decoy, which is my grandada's un-sed phone. But on Sunday night, I realised that there was something wrong with that phone, it was spoiled, so I told 'her' that and asked if I could bring my new phone instead. Of course she disagreed lah, so I was okay with having no phone. But then she took the decoy and suddenly said, "Kau macam-macam ehk. Aku tau kau dah godeh2 pastu kau ader hati nk bawak hp baru." (Read: You, very troublesome ehk. I know you fiddled with it make it spoil, and then you want to bring new phone to school.)

Fcuk. I was ohkay that she didn't allow me to bring the damn phone. But did she have any rights to accuse me of something I didn't do? Bloody crap. Of course I talked back. Then we argued and I slammed my door. She practically got all worked up and started nagging like a child. The next day, we didn't talk. But ya'll know me, I hate fighting. So I tried being nice and being patient enough to talk to her. So that Monday night, she fried some curry puffs. She slammed it on the table. I kept quiet. Then I asked, NICELY, what was the inside the curry puff, sardine or potato. And this is what I got. "Kau ader mate kan, tak tau nk tgk per?" (Read: You got eyes right, don't know how to see is it?) Damn bullshit I tell you. I just shut up. I didn't want to pursue the matter. Same kind of thing happens all the time and for the rest of the week, so, fine.

Now on Sunday, 16th Aug, something even worse happened. She doesn't know that it was exam week, so she asked me, when was my exams. I told her, tomorrow is English paper, but in actual fact it was Maths and History. She got so pissed, "Kau dah tau besok exam tk tau nak blajar per? Dah lah bodoh, sumer fail, nk jadi aper kau nie?" (Read: You already know tomorrow exam, dunnoe how to study is it? So stupid, everything fail, what will become of you?) As if she cares. I listened to her, I took my storybook and started reading. Few minutes later, "Aku suro blaja bukan bace. Gunekan otak bleh tak? Tkkn sumer nk bilang?" (Read: I ask you to study not read. Use your brains can anot? Everything must tell is it?) So I took my papers and started studying. I studied until 10.00pm. Then I kept my materials and switched on the computer cause I wanted to update some stuffs. And this is what she did.

Went up to the main switch, and CLICK. Switched the damn bloody motherfcuking computer off, when I was in the middle of saving something. FCUK YOU, YOU FCUKING BITCH. I swore, I cursed, I shouted at her. We fought a damn damn huge fight. I screamed and yelled, she threw plates at me(plastic ones, don't worry), I threw the IKEA stool at her. Then I got so pissed, I went to my room, grabbed my valuables and left the house. I was already on the verge of jumping down ohkay. I went to a friend's house who have no parents and slept there for the night. I couldn't stand it. WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS?! HER FATHER'S COMPUTER IS IT??!! IT'S MINE, GODDAMN IT! SHE'S NOT SOME QUEEN, WHO DOES NOTHING AT HOME AND START BOSSING PEOPLE AROUND OHKAY!!! I was so pissed I told my dad to fetch me the next day and send me to school from there.

So to those concerned, especially Fifie and Puma who have been constantly asking why I was so silent just now, here I'm telling you why and saying sorry for the silence ya'll got from me just now. I guess I was just too disturbed that I wanted to shut everything down and just pray I don't die of brain cancer. But I feel better now, don't worry. And to the rest, please don't ask me about this matter in school tomorrow. I don't want to talk about it. Please. Thanks.

PS: My realtionship with her, it's just better if I leave and never come back if it's going to go on like this forever. Sighs.

Welcome back.

Heyy. Missed me? Ohh well. I'm back to school ya'll! Hahah. Like finally. Ya'll already read how I suffered for 5 days at home, plus 2 days weekend, and 1 day public holiday. FREAK! I was suffocated from boredom all day everyday. So at last, I'm back. I reached school, closed Phine's eyes with my palms. And she was like, Ohkay who's this. When I revealed myself, she was like aaaaahhhh! Basically that's how the rest reacted. Hahaha. Beautiful souls. I simply love them to bits and pieces.

Ohh well. Anyways, people are saying my blog is irritating. So I went to blogskins, to find a suitable, non-irritating, SCROLLABLE blogskin there and after changing for numerous times, I finally am sticking to this one. Hahaha. I like my About me section there on your left. Hahah. Its so cute that I left it there and just added a few stuffs. Woah my fingers are aching editing the whole thing in the template man. Adding the links and all that. I swear!!!

So if ya'll have my links, and somehow find that your links are missing here on my blog, feel free to leave a tag WITH your links fr me to link you up. Cause I lost most of your links and had to track back through those that I remember, ONE BY ONE. I almost went bonkers I tell you!

So yeah, school was ohkay. I reached school and found out that there was gonna be a maths test that day. I panicked whokay. I didn't even learn anything. But thank Gawd the test was about the previous chapter that I had learnt, so, yeah. I got 14/20. Not bad ey? Hahah.

Outside school, hmmmm. Normal, simple things happening all around. I'm still pissed with her, she's still pissed with me. Well what can I say. The most pathetic relationship ever. Urgh. Oh yeah, guys, I deleted most of my friendster pictures since I figured that I won't be online that much and friendster would be neglected, so I cleared most of the informations there. So if anything, ya'll can reach me through MSN, or here itself.

Anyways, had Warisan just now. Got news that my instructor met with an accident so she didn't come for the past 3 weeks. I miss her to death man. I don't like my relief instructor. He teaches damn fast. And HIS steps are too complicated. I don't undestand so most of the time I just stared blankly while others are sweating like mad, stressing themselves out. Pfft. I got better things to do larh seyh.

Ohkay. I've got to be going now. Will be posting soon. No more 2 day/ everyday posting since I find the computer so boring nowadays. I'll post whenever I feel like it ohkay. So yeah, be patient and just enjoy life and not wai for me to post all the time. Ya''l still need to eat/drink/sleep and most importantly, shit. So, wake up! And chop chop! =))))))))

PS: Damn, I'm still single. It's so boring. =(

Home. So boring.

Hey. Wahlau. Actually I was supposed to come school today. But sadly, Mdm Lai say cannot. Damn her. I'm perfectly fine already for Gawd's sake. And what do I get for being fine? Another 1 more day at home. Then somemore Monday there's no school. And hell, I'm gonna miss Phrenz carnival tomorrow! Fcuk lah!!!

I wanna go school goddamn it!!!

My goodness. I'm gonna decay soon people. It's so boring here at home. I feel like I'm some pathetic old hag being fed with soft rice and buckets of soup and sleeping like a pig every single minute. But the good news is, I can lose weight. LOL.

Argh. I miss school. I miss my girls. I miss my friends. I miss Cikgu Djohan. Haahh. I basically miss Bishan Park Secondary. And gawd, even salt taste like water to me. I can't believe this! This is absurd! This is HAWREEBEL.

I don't have a phone to contact anyone since my own phone is down. I feel miserable. No one to talk to. OMG. If I continue being like this, I'm gonna die a lonely death! OHH THE HORROR!

Hmm let me update on what movies I have been watching at home. Monday, Wild Child and Bolt. Tuesday I watched Kung Fu Panda, Alvin and The Chipmunks and also Stomp The Yard. The today I watched Step up 1 & 2 and later maybe High School Musical 1 and Marley and Me. So, yeah. I still don't know about tomorrow though. -.-

Alright. Ending here. Have a good day ahead everyone. =)

Hello. So uhm I just finished talking to my girls on the phone just now. And you have no idea how hard it was for me to not start crying. My goodness, I miss them so much. When Anna picked up the phone she was like so excited hearing my voice. Then in the background everyone starts screaming for the phone. Awww. I can't imagine how 2 days can make a difference. But good news is that my temperature is stable right now. Its no more than 37 degree celsius. So probably I'll be coming to school by Thursday or even tomorrow. I don't want to miss watching my girls play netball on Friday please larh. =)

Dad called my school and asked if I could come, even though my MC says 5 days rest, then the clerk said, I could if my temperature tomorrow morning is still stable. Ooooh I'm so excited! I really hope today I don't have tuition. I'm so not ready to crack my brain yet. Please oh please.

PS: Gawd, my tastebuds are killing me.

Heyyy. So what's up people? Especially my beloved schoolmates? Today was the first time I never come school siaaa. I feel horribly horrible like hell. My head is like the washing machine, spinning non-stop. My throat hurts. My body aches like mad. My tummy is still sore from the instant warm up during dance last Thursday. OH MAHHH GAWD.

Well, good news is, it's not H1N1, although my temperature this morning was FAWRTAY-POINT-OHH. So I'm basically safe. Since doctor gave me 4 different types of drugs to ease my fever. HOWEVER, bad news is that ---------- JENG JENG JENG JENG.............
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I will be on MC for the next five days. ='( I feel sooo sad. I'm gonna miss my friends. And to top it all off, I'm like alone at home everyday since everyone's working. Soooo very the boring hohkay. I'm gonna be missing lessons somemore. Like wth. I feel so sick.

Speaking of sick, my appetite is killing me. Everything that I taste is so goddamn bitter. And since I have to eat medicine 3 times a day, sorry appetite, you're gonna have to endure it. So morning, I ate a piece of bread with butter. Then had my 9.30 am medicine. Then 6 hours later, another piece of bread with butter, then had my 3.30 pm medicine. Then later on, another 6 hours later, another piece of bread with butter, and maybe some fruits which mom will be buying for me when she comes home. Surprised eh I'm calling her mom? Well since yesterday morning that I started feeling horrible, she has been taking care of me from morning till yesterday night, since Sundays, the clinics near my house are closed. And evn more surprising, this morning, she even told her boss she'd be late for work, since she was gonna send me to the Polyclinic. I was touched, honestly. Then she stayed with me the whole morning since I was nervous that they would test my blood or things like that. I hate needles ohkay. Then while waiting for my brother to fetch me, she gave me money to buy bread. Awww.

Anyways, I'll end it here today. And since I'll be missing school for quite a while, I'll be posting everyday, to keep my fellow schoolmates updated. So till here, have a bright evening ahead peepal. =)

Hello people. So uhm yesterday was Josephine's Birthday Party. We had lots of fun. So let's break down from yesterday morning.

Before Assembly-
I reached school and saw Phine sitting with Nat and Fifie and Basketball people. Laughing and laughing and irritating each other. Then I found out Fifie not coming since she has some personal problems happening back home. So she was excused. Hahah.

Assembly-
Woohoo! Sec twos get to sit at the Gallery yawww!!! It was so much much more comfortablethan sitting on the floor. Took temperature and headed for class.

During Media Studies-
Mr Robin was in a bad mood.So bad that he kicked away some of the materials used to make our project. I shall not say why. So my group members were Zuby and Nat. Since only 3 are allowed in each group. So Anna was pushed to Nick and Thignesh. We argued of course. But sadly, didn't succeed. It doesn't matter though since Anna's enjoying Nick's company. LOL. Joking.

During CMT-
Had malay test. It was ohhkay. I was darn sleepy throughout the whole morning. So sleepy that when teacher read one of my sentences out loud, I didn't even hear. I didn't get enuff sleep.

Recess-
Aiyah all of you will know what happens during recess mahh. Eat, drink, talk.

English lesson-
Had some presentation stuff for the speeh thingy then studied for geography test. People study, I busy writing a composition for Phine's birthday wish letter. Hahah.

Geography-
Test. Pfft. I hate tests. I did it anyhow, anyway. So it doesn't really bother me if I pass or fail.

Reading period we were told to go to the hall. Fcuk man. I hat reading periods in hall. So crowded and warm and stuffy hoookay.

After school-
Zuby went home since she had rashes on her face. I don't know why. Nathalie and all went to J8 to buy last minute present for phine. Me and her waited for basketballers to finish their stuff since they don't know the way to phine's house.

Phine's voideck-
Had briefing from Josephine. No vulgarities. No insulting. No calling Calvin, Mongolia. Due to some reasons. During the briefng I felt as if we were on the fieldtrip, school camp, and even worse, about to rob a bank. Hahahha.

At the party-
Ate lotsa stuff. I got full and didn't finish my spaghetti.We played truth and dare after that. Kenneth was told to hug me. Aww. Then when it was my turn, I was dared to hug Jan Michael. The my truth, they asked me who I like. SSSSHHHHH!!! =D Then we played slow dancing. My partner was kenneth. So cute lah that boy. Then after that we had a dance marathon. Dancers, featuring Phine/Anna/me/Siti Farah and Hadassha, and the boys, featuring Jan Michael/Joseph/Anis. Hahahha. It was damn funny. We were basically jumping around like hell. I had lots of fun.

After party-
I left with Nat/Zuby/Anis/Ting Ting. I met up with the woman and she was practically nagging at me asking why I was so late and stuffs like that. I didn't bother. I just said we were dancing. Then she kept on nagging and nagging then I was like, 'Diam lah biseng tau tak?' (Read:Shut up lah. Very noisy you know anot?) So walked with her, erm correction, walked BEHIND her at around 3 metres apart. and then met up with dad and had dinner at Ang Mo Kio.

So that was basically it for Friday.

Thursday, nothing much. Normal school lessons, and then had dance. I was worried. Cause I din't go on Tuesday so I missed quite alot and I was worried Ms Shining would ask me what I have been practicing while I had time. But thank gawd she didn't. Hahaha. I was even so blur to the point that when people turn, I turned. When people stand, I stand. When they lie down, I lie down. Hahahha. I felt so small there. Well, I am small there. Pfft.

So, hahaha. Gotta go! Talk soon peeps. =)