Updates.

Heyho. What's up everyone? Alright so uhm. Actually I'm just in the mood to blog so here I am. These are just updates.

1. Visited my Sister-In-Law at NUH last Thursday. She was admitted to the hospital cause they found a cyst or something in her stomach. She looked so pale and scary. But now she's at home, recovering from her operation. Get well soon! =)

2. Went to Jaafar's birthday party yesterday at his house. Had fun playing games and bonding with my friends. Went home with Phine, Royce, Zuby, Kaby, Anis, Dinar and Govind. In the 88 bus, Govind was pretending to be the bus driver cause we were sitting on the double deck bus. Anis pretended to drive the bus with him, using the umbrella as the handbreak. They were fcuking hilarious and I had major sugar rush from Jaafy's cake so I was basically laughing like a bitch. So damn loud. Hahahahahah. You readers should have been there to witness it.

3. Painted my nails black today since its holidays and eventhough there's bridging next week, they're not gonna check for appearance and attire, so fcuk them. =)

4. Went to JB with the parents. Shopped at Giant. Buying 10 cartons of HL milk, cause my brother and I we love eating Koko Crunch. Bought 4 cans of Campbell Soup. Alright lets just say whatever we bought, it was as if there was an earthquake coming. -.-

5. I'm blogging now aren't I?

Alright. Gotta go. But before I go, Just wanna let ya'll know, I am sooo gonna watch this.

Comeback.

Damn my fingers ache like a bitch. I've been busy uploading pictures on facebook and typing here and there for the past 2 hours. Whoo. Tired as hell. So hello! How long have I been missing? Hmmmm. Lemme count. 6 days? Wow. That's QUITE long. Alright I'm babbling. Whatever.

Notice the new song here? I am currently in love with this song. I think its really nice. It's Ellen Degeneres' favourite song too. =) Flaws and All. Has a very deep meaning. Beyonce always sings meaningful songs. That's why I love her.

Alright. So exams are over. BUT. Momma doesn't allow me to go out until she sees my results. And boy oh boy. She is gonna flip out when she sees my results. I'm sorry Momma. I tried. You wanna scold me, beat me up, go ahead But I just want you to know I tried. If you dont believe me, that's your problem. I really did try. So stop staying I didn't.

There's bridging for O-Levels this week and next week. I hope its fruitful and productive. Cause I really wanna make it to Poly. I dont wanna go to ITE or repeat O-Levels. For once I wanna give up thinking of what clothes to wear to school everyday instead of wearing UNIFORM. But you know what? I feel like pursuing my studies overseas. Singapore is so fast-paced and there's nothing much you can achieve here. I wanna be a Psychologist. But if that doesn't work out I wanna be a writer. Or an author. That'll be so cool. Remember I told you guys I'm writing short stories at the time being? Well the first one turned out pretty okay. And now I'm finishing my second story. And so far I'm doing okay. I really like thinkin of stories. I could be a scriptwriter, Zuby said. And there's no opportunity to be one, while I'm stuck here in Singapore. I wanna travel. I wanna see whats going on around the world. So that I could be inspired even more and that I could write better.

But the thing is, I don't have money. Even if I saved it would take me at least 2 years to get $1000. God I'm so stressed out. I'm like thinking outside the box eventhough I'm all secluded and stuck IN the box. Gosh I'm pathetic. Oh well. Dream on, Azura. I don't think you'll ever get the chance to go anywhere. All my hopes are down right now, readers. any advice?

PS: I just realised I don't hate you. In fact, I miss you. Why? Why did you do this to us? What did we ever do to you? I don't understand you.

Beyonce.

I had to blog this down. Watch the video till the end please. Don't stop halfway. There's an unexpected ending. =)

Flaws and All

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

[Chorus]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
yes that's why I love you
and that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
and that's exactly what I mean.

She's just overwhelmingly beautiful isn't she? Believe it or not I cried after watchng this. It's just so touching when you see tears falling down her face when she sings. She has so much passion when she delivers any song. Be it emotionally or physically. It's just so amazing. And that's why I love her. Beyonce is so inspirational. And this, shall be my new favourite song. =)

Whoever.

Dear everyone,

Please stop asking me how's my sister, what happened to her and stuffs like that. If you've read my previous posts, you would have realised that I don't want to have anything to do with her anymore. I've already said she's no longer my sister. And she will never be until a long long long time. Or never at all. So quit asking me about her cause I'll just say, "Since when did I have a sister?" Why? Cause I hate her. Yes. I'm that mean.

So I seek your cooperation in not talking aboutthis bullshit cause it'll just open up old wounds. Thank you very much.

From,

Me.

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10.10.10

Have you been waiting for the engagement updates? Hahahahah. Lucky you, today is the day. Woohoo!. Awwsome ain't it? Alright. I don't have much time. So I'mma just let the pictures talk. I will go in sequence. More pictures are at my facebook. Enjooooy!

Starting of the day. Conserving energy for the day. =)

Guests came and we started the prayers.

My cousin and I. She's 17 I think?

The engagement ring and the watch as a gift from him to her.

The cousins from Daddy's side. Our noses are ALL the same. =)

The 2 representatives from the boy's side. My Daddy's brothers.

The Family. I am proud of this picture.

Boarding the bus to the girls's side.

Going up to the girls' house and our hearts are thumping.

I love her. =)

Oh and remember John? The awwsome dude who's been by my brother's side since he was 13? The one in black is him. =)))

He looks happy doesn't he? He's no longer just a brother and a son. He's someone's fiance now. =)

And this is my most favourite picture.

Congratulations to the both of you for getting engaged! I just wanna say that Abg, you've grown so much and I realised that only AFTER I found out you were getting engaged. And seeing you so happy on the day itself touched me deep in my heart. Not only you. The whole family is happy for you. We've been through so much as a family and we've come this far. Same goes for your relationship. You've been together for what? 4 years? And you're still going strong. I wanna wish you all the best for your future, and hopefully, you last till eternity. Thank you for being the man of the family. Thank you for giving me an amazing sister-in-law. Thank you for goving me a sister that I never had. Thank you for being Momma/Daddy's son. Muhd Izwan Bin Ashari, thank you for everything. I love you, brother. =)

Study.

Whoo sisnce 1st October I haven't blogged. Reason? My week was fully booked! Like I said, I 've been concentrating and focusing on studying and nothing else. That is exactly what I have been doing for the past 7 days. Sec 3s have been going for night study, from 6pm to 9pm. I feel like a polytechnic student coming home so late. Alright don't have to think so far. I feel like I'm doing my O Levels at this point. I never fail to come for night study. And I spend 11 hours in school. And less than that at home. I reach home, bathe, eat while watching TV with my parents and then I got to sleep. That's my routine since this Monday. And since today, school finished earlier, I decided not to go to the Sel-Study at 1pm to 3pm cause I'm farking sick and I'm tired.

I have been having flu, cough, headache, fever. But I endured and still attended school cause I told ya'll, I don't wanna drop to Acad. The consequences are ridiculous and I don't wanna bear them. So I am freaking studying non-stop so that I DON'T drop down to Acad. I thought of going to the clinic today, but momma isn't home so I thought forget it. The fever will pass.

Alright so this Sunday, my brother's getting engaged. I am soooo excited. And worried at the same time cause I have Maths and Social Studies exam the next day. So as soon as my guests leaves, I'm gonna revise. Hahahah. I hope everything goes well. I am sooo nervous. And very happy for them and myself. Hopefully in 3 years time I'm cuddling my niece/nephew in my arms. =)))

My parents are fantasizing about being grandparents already. And I have to admit, its cute cause Daddy was like, "I cannot wait to bring my grandchildren for cycling at the park." Hahahah. I know right? And momma sounded so excited. Kak Zizah! I want baby!!! Hahahah.

So there you go. Right now I'm gonna take a quick nap to regain my energy for tonight. Momma's gonna reach home soon from Geylang cause she went to buy the engagement stuffs with my aunts. So yeah. Hopefully she brings home food. =) Have a good day everyone.

PS: I might not blog again until the end of next week. So please don't expect anything when you drop by. Thank you for reading! Enjoy this video.

Hahah.

Hello there! Hahahahahah. How long has it been since I last blogged? Woooowwww. Not that long actually. Okay lame. I know. -.- So uh... what's my current status? I'm at home, listening to my dad cursing and talking to himself cause he's adjusting the TV Channels and they're just plain irritating. Oh well. Patience Daddy. Patience. =)))

I just had a veeeeerrry refreshing bath. The cold water felt so damn good against the hot weather. And I washed my hair wih Sunsilk Pink, Yuko Yamashita, and godness knows how soft and nice it feels. It's been about an hour since I finished bathing, but I still feel fresh. That's why I love to bathe. I usually stay in the shower for like almost 1 hour plus, just to bathe. I'm not sure why I take so long but I think it's because the bathroom feels like a secret place for me to hide from everything and just simply calm, relax and pamper myself to the maximum. Eventhough my Momma nags, I can't really hear her voice while I'm in the shower so that feels awwsome. =)))

Alright so my family is busy with my brother's upcoming engagement. Which is on next Sunday, 10.10.10. Even me. I am freaking nervous cause I've never done this before. It's like I'm so nervous for my brother. I have no idea why. But at the same time I am soooo freaking excited. I don't know how the process and everything else goes so I am truly and extremely interested to know. I can't wait for it.

Okay I don't think I have anything else to say. I'm gonna get myself real busy during the weekends and next week. Cause my Year End Exam is coming and I swear I am definitely not prepared. Okay maybe Social Studies and a little of History and Biology, but I can't be complacent and not revise anymore. I have to study real hard, burn the midnight oil if I have to. And I don't care about any other things except my studies at this point. I'm all focus, focus, focused. So to those who have my number, please don't bug me if you don't have anything interesting to tell me. Or even better, don't bug me at all. Just tell me in school, or Facebook. Thank you very much.

PS: I wanna watch this movie so badly.