OMG.

Yeah. I get it. I know I know. My Blogger is DEAD. I can't help it people! I'm busy with school, and other things! I am so sorry. =(

Ohkayy. Nowadays I've been really addicted to reading people's Tumblrs. I think Tumblrs are extremely cool to the highest level of Maximum. Hahah. Whatever is on Tumblr is so fcuking true and entertaining. Especially the little GIFs. A.K.A little animations. I'm officially addicted to alot of people's tumblrs. But I could never have my own cause if I did, it'll be dead because everybody be posting the same thing and I'll have nothing to post. So imma just stick and stay true to Blogger. It stayed with me. I can't betray it. =)

Okayy. So anyways... What's going on with me? Sighs. I'm heartbroken currently. All these while I thought the rumours were true and he DOES like me he just doesn't wanna say it. Cause the things he do, the things he say, I feel like he's just shy to admit he likes me. So I let it be. But a few days ago I got my answer. He doesn't. He flat out straight doesn't like me like that. He doesn't have feelings for me like I have for him. I'm pathetic I know. What's more hurtful is that he likes someone else. And I know this girl. Hell, she's a freaking close friend. And he's been liking her since before. I thought that was okay because sooner or later he's gonna realise that she doesn't feel the same way towards him and he'll move on. But I was wrong. She does feel the same way towards him. She's just a very complicated person that cannot make up her mind and she's currently on my 'Die Bitch' List. Urgh. I'm pathetic. And heartbroken.

Whatever. I'm moving on. I try not to feel anything everytime he looks at me. I try not to get butterflies in my tummy when he's THAT close to me. I try not to blush when he stares. I try not flutter when he smiles. I try my best, to STOP liking him. I gotta move on. She's my friend. He's my friend. I don't wanna be a bitch. I mean I am already a bitch BUT I don't wanna be that kind of bitch. I'm a loser. -.-

Oh well. This has been private all these while and I've never told anyone except Puma. She's the closest friend I have at this point. And I'm thankful that I at least have her. I love Puma. Everyone else is asking who I like cause I RARELY like anyone. But I said I will never tell them cause it's something that can NEVER be told. Okay enough. Azura, you're blabbering.

I realise my blog isn't as lively as before. Where I give deep insights on something, my own opinions and views, and stuffs like that. I'm sorry Readers. I've changed. I lost that Blogger touch quite a while ago. I'm not sure where it went. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm quiet, I'm secretive, I'm boring, I'm always angry, I'm always crying over little things. I guess I have too many things bottled up inside that everytime something happens I burst. Argh. I'm pathetic. And I'm outta here.

PS: If you wanna catch up with me, follow me on Twitter. You have to follow me cause I'm private and my Tweets are protected. I'm more active there right now cause it's like a quick blog. Then you can also ask me questions on Formspring. Any questions I don't mind. And of course, Facebook. But don't worry I'll still continue blogging though. I don't wanna lose my readers. =)

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